The week of the rollercoaster

I am excited to remember to blog yet again! How long must you do something before it becomes a habit?

Well, what a week I had. It certainly was an emotional rollercoaster, some good stuff, but also stress, sadness and disappointment. Of course some of it was self inflicted (I certainly love to torture myself), but some was just life circumstances and time going by. My youngest son, Colin, turned 4 on Saturday. That was rough, I will miss 3 with him. I know I will enjoy 4 and we are starting into a new phase of our family, but I am grieving. This was certainly not an emotion I was expecting. My cat also turned 18 this week. Another rough one. He has officially been in my life more than he has been out of it. His health has certainly declined this past year and he will most likely not reach 19. I have somewhat began preparing for this, but I'm not sure how you can totally prepare to lose a constant companion you've had with you longer then the current members of your household. I have lost pets before and I know what that feels like, but this will be different.

The rest of the week consisted of: a husband being away for 2 days, auditions (for one show I really wanted to be in and one that I didn't care so much), 8 yards of mulch to be spread in the snow, rain and hail, preparing and having a birthday party for Colin with about 25 people, callbacks for both shows but wasn't cast in either, a very emotional 11 year old boy with a bad math test grade, a really fun gala where I performed with friends and we won the auction for a B& B and a dinner at a restaurant we enjoy. Some really good stuff and some not so good. Most of my weeks are not like this and I felt like I was on overload. My body certainly had enough as I woke up at 3 am this morning drenched in sweat, yuck!

Thank goodness God was in the middle of it. He gave me patience, perseverance and endurance to get through it all. And now I feel his comfort for the tough stuff that is left in my brain that I am having a hard time getting over. He has given me a warm day so I won't mind running errands and then enjoy some gardening where I feel closest to him anyway. I am not feeling so overwhelmed and look forward to catching up on things that were put on hold last week (taxes, accounting, monthly menu planning, grocery list). I am starting to be ok with not performing this summer. I certainly am disappointed, but I won't have to cut short any vacation, can really focus on registration for VBS, helping with our church's community fair, playing lots of volleyball, and really enjoying my husband and kids. There are other places I can audition for, but I think God is telling me to continue my break from my last show this past December and to focus on other stuff. There is plenty of time for it in the future.

That's enough for now and I am excited to see what this week will hold for me.

Peace